The Life of Seeds: On Gratitude

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I’m keeping a gratitude journal this month. It’s an ongoing list in my little notebook of what I receive every day. Even though it’s only day four, I’ve racked up quite a few things, some monetary and some not – the discount I got on vegetables from my favorite stand at the market, the email inviting me to present a long-time performance project in a group show at a gallery in New York, the text sent to me this morning with the encouraging words I needed to hear right at that moment.  Continue reading “The Life of Seeds: On Gratitude”

A Movement

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From the 20-year anniversary of the Image Factory Art Foundation in Belize City, 2015

It’s been a rough few days. I’ve been feeling more sensitive than usual which, as an empath, means I’ve been feeling all the things. Even from here in my quiet home in Belize, I felt the intense energy leading up to the inauguration, not just from others but within myself as well. Anxiety, frustration, loss. I’m still processing all that happened for me personally in 2016, which is working its way through. And we just found out we have to move again. Everything all at once.  Continue reading “A Movement”

Onward & Upward

tree in gardenMercury turned retrograde today. I’m feeling the slowdown as I wrap things up before traveling to New York for the holidays. My focus is shifting inward now. As I’ve been reflecting on the year that 2016 has been (FIERCE), I’m allowing myself to feel all that’s coming up. It’s been an emotional ride. There have been losses and intense challenges. There have also been wonderful moments. I’m grateful for all of it. Continue reading “Onward & Upward”

Taking A Moment

tea on porch

It’s been hard to write in this space lately. If I’m honest, it’s been hard to write in general. I worked on a piece this week for my coaching site about moving through resistance in the creative process, something I’d been putting off doing for weeks. While I feel good about having accomplished that, the fact that it took me so long to write it speaks to how I’ve been struggling with my own resistance. Continue reading “Taking A Moment”

Wrap It Up, B: Shifting Into A New Season

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All around me shifts are happening. High season is coming here in Belize, and shops and restaurants around San Ignacio are preparing for the influx of tourists. It’s also still rainy season and we’ve been getting more regular showers throughout the day. The humidity is in full effect, the nights are cooler, and the days are starting to feel shorter as darkness creeps into the evenings a little bit earlier than before. Continue reading “Wrap It Up, B: Shifting Into A New Season”

Home Again & Sweet Justice

Kyana on porchWe moved five times this year. Y’all… to tell you that it took an emotional toll is an understatement. Not having a permanent place to live for eight months was completely destabilizing. I was lucky to have my practice, and the support of my partner and friends and family, to help me cultivate a sense of “home” within as much as I could. And even though I rolled with the punches and made the best of things, there was a palpable feeling of insecurity and a lingering sense of being in perpetual transition that couldn’t be resolved until we found another home. Continue reading “Home Again & Sweet Justice”

40

palm tree in caye caulkerOn Wednesday I turned 40. My sister and a bunch of girlfriends came down to Belize from New York to celebrate with me for a week, and they rented a house in Caye Caulker. We played in the pool, swam in the sea, ate, drank, danced, sang songs and had an awesome time. It was fun and relaxing and silly, and just what I needed. It was exactly how I wanted to spend my birthday. Continue reading “40”

The Front Porch

my favorite tree
my favorite tree…

We’ve been living on the farm for a month now, and being here is so peaceful and inspiring. There are some adjustments I’ve had to make to my routine, including getting used to a more rustic way of living (hello, spiders and scorpions), but overall I feel like I’m finding my rhythm. I’ve been bike riding into town more and I’m slowly getting comfortable with it, which is huge for me. And I’ve found a tree which I’ve declared my favorite. Old, tall and wise, it’s where I go to sit and reflect, listen to birds, watch iguanas climb and chase bugs, and receive answers to my questions. I’ve discovered ways to ground my practice here – taking walks around the farm, meditating under my tree and listening – which is how I know I’m truly settling in. Continue reading “The Front Porch”